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February 7, 2010
... thinking about life ... what it is
thinking it's only a word
we put too much faith in our words ... can't seem to stay focused on the fact that we made them all up
words do not exist naturally in the universe .. we made them up in an effort to handle the universe, to try to get some kind of grip on it, gain some power over it ...
so many things that we talk about we only talk about, because we only have words ... but we act as if the words are something more than words
there are many examples
love ... only a word ... but we make so much of it ... talk about it like it is real, a real actual thing; discuss at length what it is; make movies about it
it's all distraction, misdirection ... love is only a word that we made up
we want to understand what is happening.
Man by nature desires to know
(Aristotle)
at those moments when we are not able to understand what is happening we feel weak and naturally seek empowerment and feel that the words will give us some power over the environment, because our environment is where we are, the place where everything is happening to us, all the things we don't understand
and we want to control things that we might not want to happen ...
shit happens
(bumper sticker)
we don't really know anything except that we feel something. we know that we feel; that we feel we are sensing something or other, like the moon in the sky. we don't really know that the moon is in the sky, only that we sense it, and we don't even know that. we only know that we feel that we sense the moon in the sky. we know our feelings, that we are having them. that is all that we truly know.
we do not know what life is. we only know that there is a word that we like to throw around a lot. it is the word life. we use it to spear something that we do not understand. at least we think we're spearing it. we don't know that we're spearing it. we only know that we feel that we are trying to spear it. we know that it feels that we are making an effort. we know that it feels as if we are doing something. we know that it feels as if we are sensing. we do not really know whether we are sensing. we only know that it feels as if we are. we know that we are having the feeling.